Waiting and Just Sitting

Its been 90 minutes here at the automotive service center. How much of this time has been “waiting “ and how much “just sitting?”

Somtimes waiting morphs into just sitting.

Other times just sitting morphs into waiting.

Often times preparing for a group meditation there are a few minutes of waiting for the bell to signal the start of the session.

“Ah, the bell now I can begin.”

The attention to waiting stops and the meditation session begins. Slowly the waiting morphs towards just sitting. But what has changed?  My position of sitting is the same. My breath is the same. My attention to the breath is the same.  At first there is a sense of narrowing my awareness down to a focus on the breath. Along with this is an initial resistance to being pulled away by distractions of sound, sensations or thoughts.

The sense of waiting for the bell has been replaced by a softer waiting for the “just sitting” to begin. And then it happens the distractions become the world around and within. Sights, sounds, smells, tastes, sensations and even thoughts just come and go like the line drawn in water by your finger passing through.

Just sitting. And then after a while it morphs back towards waiting.

Sometimes waiting morphs into just sitting.

Other times just sitting morphs into waiting.

The tricky but interesting part is noticing the shift from one to the other.

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